this blog has been ignored for way too long. whenever my emo side comes around, i tend to indulge in reminiscence quite a bit. well. i think in my christmas cards last year, i wrote something like "hope we'll be able to spend more time together". cos last year, in year1 of our uni life, i was alr wondering if we'll all become alienated. more groups of friends, activities, commitments. hmm. im not complaining abt our clique or whatever, really. i think i kinda failed in that goal though. excluding bday celebrations, i think i only met u all abt 5 times this year. the only good thing, whenever we meet we usually haf a lot to talk about. no wonder recently the best kinda outings with my cliques are simply sedentary, good chill-out places or homes where we can talk for a whole day.

how i dislike the word "busy". but busy everyone is, and we'll only get busier as we grow older. i feel like im still struggling to balance my time properly. sigh. there are days when i really feel like holing up at home the whole day and being a hermit crab =/ doesn help that in med ppl all haf different priorities and dont really appreciate what u do anyway (i feel...). for my og in med, i haf decided to quit organising outings/bothering abt stuff alr. which is why i think im becoming more introverted nowadays. after school i just feel like going straight home. gulp! i can stay at home the whole day and be very happy not talking to anyone. >.< think i wouldnt mind spending a week in solitude.

then again, there are days when i think very long nv meet up with old friends alr. but then again. i'll start to think. they'll all be busy anyway, and it's so difficult to meet. i know they care and would want me to share my probs if i have any, but... ...aiyar i think u all noe what i mean. even trying to get 6 ppl to meet to "celebrate" seems more like a chore. ok i admit i nv really organise anything for my cliques. haha i think im not the "leader figure" in my cliques leh. tts prob not a gd way to think. then everyone will think that they are not the "leaders" why must organise >.<

erh. im really not complaining. more like just. musing. was wondering whether i should post here or on my own blog. scared if post here u all think im becoming damn emo. >.< i think it's the emo songs im listening to. i hope tmr i dont wake up and regret what i posted o.o

as christmas comes around, the usual fuzzy warm feeling is here. along with the spirit of thanksgiving and forgiveness and goodwill. im feeling rather badegg cos i think i havent made enough effort to be part of u guys' lives. plus to my jc clique also. >.< sorry! and thanks for bearing with me, quirks and all, girls. here's to many more years of friendship. MERRY CHRISTMAS.